Happy Birthday, GMC

June 20, 2006 - Tuesday

Mind Melt Current mood: exhausted

Sing a lil happy birthday to GMC today. Yep, the lil fire cracker turned five. Holy Shit!!! She's five! Wow.....
Those were the thoughts I drove to work with today. The more and more they settled in the faster my heart was beating and that tiny cry lump had formed into a mound the size of a jawbreaker, or at least it felt as such.
Not only was today my little girlies birthday but the beginning of hell week at work. If youve been youll know what I mean when I say NASCAR
It must have been a combination of events that lead to my mini flat-line experience at the stop light.
I pull up to the light and the thoughts of someone actually trusting ME with a child still had me in disarray. I mean, seriously though, I have a kid! And shes five! I know it must sound like Ive completely lost my mind, and I have, but that was a while ago. BUT Im serious! Its weird. Shes a kid. Not a baby or a toddler. A real kid. (ok, you can get the white jacket anytime).
The only thing I remember is starting to zone off on the thoughts of the work week and how busy it gets. Then back to the whole kid thing.
Next thing I know, horns are honking and some jack ass next to me is yelling something out his window. I wasnt sure if I wanted to laugh or tell him to eat a dick.

Through out the day I kept thinking back to that moment. Once in a while I started to trip on it but realized, there are some things I have no control over. Getting worked up over it wouldnt really benefit me at all. So, I did what anyone else would have done, sipped on a bottle of whiskey until the next caller didnt seem quite so irritating. I am kidding of course. You all know I hate whiskey.

I guess these are the things we go through in life. I wouldnt trade the life I have for any other offering. Having Gracelyn in my life definitely has kept me in check and made me see there is more than what meets the eye. I have to admit, some times I feel like I want to pull my hair out with the comments or actions she comes at me with but at the same time, I look at her and say there you go. Get it! And dont let anyone get in your way.
I can see the passion in her. And anyone who has passion is alright with me.