Dude, where's my car? :-(

The issues from the car accident are wearing me down. I am exhausted every day. It is appointment after appointment,  and don't forget your xrays, and that doctor is booked...sorry!

Today I had such a horrible headache,  I wanted to put my head in a vice and slowly apply pressure because for some crazy reason it actually makes it feel better.
I experienced a decent case of vertigo and very shaky body at the end, so we called it a day.

I headed down the elevator, out the front  door and headed into the parking lot to find my car. I searched the lot  for about ten minutes and then wondered; did someone drive me here? No, I definitely drove myself. So my search continued.  Another ten minutes, and I started to panic. I decided to click my remote at each car as I walked by. As I approached a tiny little white car, it unlocks,  and the lights flickers. I was so confused for a few brief moments. I had been looking for a little silver Ford Focus, not a white Ford Fiesta.
For whatever reason, I forgot I had a new car. I got inside and cried. I felt so silly, how does that happen?!

I've also been waking up in the middle of the night calling out to my daughter,  but instead of saying her name, I say my sisters. Some childhood abuse has been coming back up with eating restrictions and other emotional damage.  It's possible my pain is being caused by brain damage, I hope the neuro psychologist can fix me. I hurt daily, I am tired of being in pain, I want the vertigo to stop, I have started stuttering,  slurring and jumbling words, I have a hard time spelling.  I feel "dumb" this is absolutely traumatic,  and worst of all, until recently, I feel like I have been going through it alone. I have a couple people I've been able to count on but the rest either didnt have time, didn't understand or I guess just didnt want to get involved.

I am one of the strongest, most independent,  happy, and selfless people I know, and this incident is breaking me down.  I've seen and felt emotions in me I had no idea even existed. I have seen myself do things for others I shouldn't have been doing. I hope when this is all said and done, I am still all of those wonderful things, and I still have all the good people who fought through the hard times with me.

There's something to be said about loyalty.  I am a lot of things, mostly good, and loyal is definitely one of them. Do what you say, and say what you do.